• Wamaitha


Updated: Jul 26, 2018

Today is a new opportunity, don't waste it!!

I'm sorry about the vulgar title but I think that this post needed a really strong title, and my limited vocabulary brought me to this beautiful word that I think does the post justice. It's really easy to sit around and complain about how the things you have planned never worked out because you didn't get the opportunity. Sometimes that may be true, however, I have found more often than not we don't really put ourselves out there and actually chase our dreams. Why? Honestly that depends on the person, but, I think the one of the answers would be that we are afraid of failure, embarrassment or rejection.

We're all human, let's admit it. No one likes to put in 100% effort just to end up being told "that's not good enough" or that their work was "just average". It hurts yo! All that hard work for nothing, it's even embarrassing and you're just left there wondering what you're supposed to do next. Regardless thats no reason to give up altogether, or to put in less effort then comfort ourselves by saying "oh, I didn't get it because I wasn't really trying." or "If I really wanted it, I would have made it". Truth is your just stopping yourself before you even try, its called sabotaging yourself and it's worse than failure.

Personally, there are so many things I wanted to try that I never got around to doing because of this stupid fear of not being good enough. I stopped making any art for almost two years and it was literally killing me, yet I sat around complaining about how I was forced to drop. Then one day a really good friend told me two words I'll never forget "So what?". After that, this huge reality hit me, no one cared. Not in a bad way, what I'm trying to say is that I was the only one feeling bad about it and me complaining over and over was just a waste of time. I was scared because people around me had gotten better as they should because they were practicing and I was just there whining about something that was completely in my control, all I literally had to do was pick up a pencil and a piece of paper.

I decided I was going to try a new method, I would just draw everyday. No pressure, it didn't have to be perfect and it didn't need to be extravagant just a small sketch in a purple notebook. I can promise you that day was the beginning of a really great streak that lasted a little over one month. It felt great, I was drawing, then shading and eventually colouring, I was on fire yo! Moreover, I was getting good at it again and the confidence was building up. I showed my friends and they liked my little drawings so much that I completely forgot what I was even scared of in the first place.

The truth is, the only thing stopping me from getting back into art was me. No one was physically holding me back, I was just lost in my own head being concerned about peoples opinions and forgetting the one that mattered the most, mine! I've grown a lot as an artist since that day and I still have a long way to go but I'm a lot further ahead than if I had waited for the "right time". The reason I'm sharing this story is because a lot of people have been asking how I got the courage to just post my stuff out there for anyone and everyone to see. And the answer is I didn't, it's a battle everyday but it's worth it. Just keep trying and eventually you'll find that the confidence just showed up along the way. So like I said earlier, just f**king do it.

What do you really have to lose?

- Wamaitha


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